A Single Mom's Blog

It's a wonderful feeling being surrounded by little ones. Ok, so my eldest daughter and my teenage son is not so little anymore but you know what mothers are like. My children will always be my baby even another baby had come to us... and that's my "apo" and i don't consider him as my grandson since I am too young to be a grandma and as if he came from my womb as his mother.

I was only 18 then when I made birth to my daughter and she is only 16 by now. And I may say that her teenage life is not as good as other teenagers have. I find it difficult to discipline my kids and don't know exactly how, being their father and mother in one. I know that she came through confusing and rebellious years. And to whom she would have turn to? Barkadas and friends. There were so many "what ifs" flushing in my mind when I learned that she was pregnant at the age of 14. What if I didn't break up with their father? What if I didn't go abroad to work? (Yes this single mom blogger is a former Japayuki!) Would all these things happen? I tried to keep calm preventing my self to hurt her and tried to understand the situation. But she was so young then! Could she face the embarrassment made by her mistakes? How would she tell other people about this? And how about the "tsismosas"(gossips) in our neighborhood? And worst, could she carry pains of labor? And finally, I made a decision, and I know it was right. Let the child be born and be a part of the family. About the father of the child? I told him that my daughter is still young and there are still lots of opportunities to come her way.I don't want to happen what is exactly had happened to me.

Now my grandson is in his first year and her mother is back to school. Rumors and gossip is following her. And to my surprise, there are teachers who also enjoy discussing about others private life. I just advised her to ignore all of this and what's important is to prove them that she had changed and ready to face the world again. I know she can get through this and I know that one thing she had copied from me is her being tough facing all these difficult challenges! All she needs is support from me and her family. And I am proud of her.

I wrote about her story or our story so to be an inspiration for other moms and their kids facing the same consequences. And one thing I've learned about this, it is to value the fleeting time that our children are still ours. Now I consciously treasure the simple family moments that came my way.